Sep 13, 2018

Three things, interlinked

1) My feelings about a thing, prospectively
Do I want to do it? Am I avoiding it? Dreading it?

2) The experience of the thing, in the moment
Is it enjoyable? Is it difficult?

3) My feelings about a thing, retrospectively
Did I enjoy the experience? Do I endorse it?

These often point in opposing directions. I dread things that I end up enjoying & endorsing; I want things that I end up disavowing.

The tension here feels baked in. Perhaps there are ways to ease it, but I doubt there's a way to dissolve it entirely.

So the project becomes one of weighting – how much am I listening to my prospective desires for things, versus my in-the-moment enjoyment of things, versus my retrospective endorsements of things?